….been thinking about what you said.
Not so much your words but where they came from. Specifically the last two segments.
For some reason, you and I reconnected. After all of those years. And though we left each other’s life for forty some years, we never really did.
That in itself is a miracle.
And think of all the others that came and went, and came and went, and came back into our lives.
Same exact thing.
All arrive, depart and return with full intention.
At precise, deliberate and meaningful moments. Seemingly fleeting. Somehow indiscriminate. And completely meaningless if you are not open to what is really at work.
Rather, who is really at work.
I am in utter awe at what my life has been. Yes, it has had its share of pain – with more to come I am sure. But then again, these tiny, minuscule moments – like me texting you on Tuesday morning at 4:46 AM – utterly leave me a sobbing mess.
No clue why it happened, is happening or will happen again. Only that it does.
And I am blessed because of it.
So in a really round about way, I guess what I am saying is that it is all gonna work out 46.
I cannot tell you why, how or when.
But it will.
Perhaps those just starting their lives cannot fathom that.See that big a picture. Perhaps in those situations, that is the fear, anxiety and hopelessness that emerges, rises to the surface and shows itself as anger.
Unlike you, I have yet to tell my children that my lot has been called and my time in this place is short. But I do know what it feels like to be on the receiving end some fourteen years ago.
But the words will come.
That bond between you will remain. And though you might be apart in the here and now, you will always be together forever.
We come and go in each others lives.
We struggle to understand.
But it all means something.
Something truly beautiful and lasting.
If only we can somehow let go and see it as such.
Just as you and I left and returned, again, somehow, someway, somewhere we too will remain.